I have decided to get a better handle on my health. Not that I am completely unhealthy, but I could be in better shape. I decided on 11/2/15 that would be the day that I began my journey. Now, over a month later, I have seen some results, but not as much as I would like. Mainly due to some work travel, the holidays and some other ventures I have been working on lately that have thrown a knife in my routine.
Being a month in, should I give up? Should I think that I am not cut out for being a “fit” person? Should I give into all of my old bad habits?
What I have learned mainly over the last month is the idea that I can’t expect immediate results once I have decided I want to make changes in my life. I shouldn’t expect to wake up with a 6-pack because I hit the gym hard for two weeks and then sparingly for the the next two.
What I can be proud of, what I should be proud of, is that I am making changes, even if they are small, to better myself and my life in general.
This goes beyond just my fitness, it is about my overall well-being and how I want to use the life I have been given. I am a dreamer and I constantly imagine how I want my life to be. I could stop there, just letting dreams be dreams and never reality. Instead, I have taken many steps, personally & professionally to help build the life I envision for myself. Some days, these steps are smaller than others. Some days, it is just writing down my thoughts in my journals. Some days, it’s working on a big project that could be life changing. Some days, it’s reaching out to people that I know make me a better person and encourage me to continue to follow the road less traveled.
Some days, I look around and think that I am not moving quick enough. I expect myself to be Superperson and be able to conquer all my goals in a flash. But as we get closer to 2016, I look back on this year and I am proud of the small changes I have been making to get my life to where I want it to be. I have stepped outside of my box and have looked to give back to my community by volunteering for GLSEN. I attended the Ruckusmaker Seminar ran by Seth Godin and met people that I never thought I should be allowed to be in the same room with. I have formed connections with people that initially I thought wouldn’t see the world the way I do. I started this blog and have written many posts that are completely honest and real. I proposed to the love of my life in front of our family and friends. I wrote the rough draft of my book, my own story to help the LGBTQ youth community know they aren’t alone. I have found people that “get me”, that help push me to be better and believe in me. Reading that back, I think damn. But as this year went on, many times I didn’t think I was good enough. I didn’t think I was working hard enough, making enough changes. But I took small steps, I woke up every morning and thought about what I wanted for my life. I made small changes in order to get there and I can say I proud of what I have accomplished this year.
If we all could snap and make our life exactly how we wanted it to be, I am sure 99.9% of us would. But what’s the fun in that? Building the life that you want, brick by brick, layer by layer, allows you to admire your work as you go and be proud of what you built.
If you asked in on January 1st, 2015 if I would have thought I would be where I am today, stronger, healthier, happier, working towards things that matter to me, I would have told you you were crazy. But looking back, each small step I have taken, is helping me build the greatest, most exciting life.
Moral of the story? Take those small steps. Don’t take them for granted. Don’t think that those small changes don’t matter. They do, each one of them do. Small steps forward, are still small steps forward. Don’t underestimate the power of forward progress. Every time you put your foot forward in the direction of something you believe in, you will create something magical and there is nothing greater than that.
What are the small changes you are going to start to make? Don’t wait for tomorrow, start today.